Next year I will be each of the following:
-Gorgeous; meaning, my hair, makeup, nails, body will be flawless. In doing so, this summer will be hard work. Getting up every morning at 4:30-5:00 to make sure I look flawless. Everything about me will be flawless. All the girls will envy my flawlessness. And for once, everyone will regret that they pushed me to the side. I will be the girlfriend my boy deserves. A perfect angel. Perfect grades, perfect looks, everything..perfect. I know my parents are gonna freak out a little when they realize how much weight I’m losing and that I’m smaller than my 12 year old sister at 16 years old. But my excuse will always be, “I don’t know why I’m losing weight.. I’m not doing anything to do so..” the lies I always tell them. “I guess I’m getting taller..?”

tumblrbot asked: WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER WHEN YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD?

Hm.. Well, that depends on what type of person you are. Me, I wouldn’t really recommend what I usually do lol But, sweetie why are you in a bad mood?

I hate it when people are so unappreciative of me. -__- Fuck it then. I won’t help anyone if that’s the way people are gonna give thanks. Fuck you.

My dad told me I looked like skin and bones. And as much of a compliment as that was.. Wtf? I mean, I have lost a good amount of weight but it hasn’t been all of a sudden! I don’t get parents. Smh -.-

You know your parents are too strict about what you wear when your grandparents are more chilled out about it than they are.. My parents are fucking ridiculous. -_____- I can’t wait till I fucking leave this god forsaken house. Fuck this shit.

They laugh at me because I’m different. I laugh at them cuz they’re all the same. xDD It’s funny how people think they’re so original and cool, but they’re really just copies of everyone else.

If theres something I’ve always wanted, it would be to be skinny. Ever since elementary I’ve envied the girls with the seemingly perfect bodies. -.- ughhh. Maybe this year I’ll get what I want.

I’ve come to realize that I will never be the pretty perfect girl. I will never have perfect hair, makeup, clothes, friends.. Etc. I will always be the same messy-haired, pale-faced, ginger. >____

I always knew there was some Native American Indian blood in me from both of my parents sides of the family, and I never really paid too much attention to it, I just knew that I had some indian blood. Anyways, recently I’ve grown interested in looking up where my heritage comes from, not only did I look up my English and Irish heritage I also looked up my Native heritage as well. After reading about a lot of the tribes and a lot of the horrible tragedies they went to, I began to become very interested in the things they believed in, I wanted to know more. I looked up old traditions, beliefs, ideas, etc. And I was looking at some of the totem animals that were given to the people of the tribe. They were said to be looked as a guidance in life because your totem animal was inlike of you. Interesting as this is, I’ve had a wolf appear in my dreams multiple times throughtout the weeks.. looking it up, it discribes my life in a way.. Coincidence? Or am I just crazy? I don’t know. Hm.